Happy New Year, friends! I have had a slow couple days at my grandfather’s lake cabin. It’s a wonderful, peaceful time with my husband and daughter.
Starting a new year with cancer in the family is an odd experience. What about New Year’s resolutions? Saying you’re going to lose weight or pay off your credit card suddenly seems so unimportant (and way too easy). I’ve thought a lot about what should be my goal this year, and this is what came to me at 4 a.m. while feeding the baby:
Stop thinking about the future and past.
This New Year’s resolution might be the hardest one of all. Live in the moment. Carpe diem. Savor each second with my husband and daughter. Do every fun thing that comes to us, and it doesn’t have to be big. Light candles. Use the good crystal. Come up with any excuse to get together with friends and family. Go out of the way to laugh or do something nice for others. And take very, very good care of ourselves. (I guess that’s where the treadmill comes in.)
I have been driving myself up a wall thinking about all the things that have gone wrong in 2012, and all the uncertainty ahead. Really, I need to break it down to being grateful for this moment. Why is this so hard to do? Isn’t this moment all any of us have?